Hanging in There

I am at a really challenging time in my recovery.  I have worked through so much crap that led to my eating disorder and yet I still am really struggling to let go.  I was on vacation last week and that helped a lot.  But I get in these patterns that are both good and bad.  So it will be three good days and three days were my symptoms rule my world.  It just gets exhausting.  And my focus and heart are not in it during those difficult times.  I just have to keep my focus on today.