Putting Up a Fight

It has been a really hard week.  I feel like I have been fighting for peace.  I feel very uncomfortable trying to connect with this other piece of me that has come up.  Life was cruising along and then, bam!  Right between the eyes.  I feel like I am really subconsciously fighting this piece of me from coming back.  So I have to consciously fight to recognize it when it comes up and to reconnect with it.  I know this is going to make a huge difference in my recovery.  This may be the final piece that I need to get there.  But this has been one of the toughest issues to deal with to date.