Struggles

I went away for the three-day weekend and ran into a mess of struggles.  I am trying so hard to lean on God for the hard times.  But it is still hard to let Him into the "dirty" places in my life.  Yes, I know He is there but I prefer to ignore Him.  Bad, huh?  Being back at home today and having a normal schedule will help me manage my symptoms.  And I have a busy week which surprisingly can help too.  So here goes.  I am so scared that I will never get past this.  But I know if I keep working a little at a time I will.  It is so hard right now though.