I have really been struggling to get anything written lately.  My life is feeling out of control.  My schedule is nuts with no end in sight.  I have made to many promises to too many people and I'm feeling overwhelmed. 

Having rediscovered this piece of myself is so confusing too.  Part of me wants to accept it and part of me wants to reject it.  When I get on autopilot (which is more often than not) I definitely end up rejecting it.  And I wonder where God is in all of this.  I struggle to pray.  I struggle to stop and reflect.  It is just too painful to deal with.  But the truth is, when I do stop to deal with it I always feel better.  I guess it is just fear of the unknown.  I have a big leap of faith to make and I'm stuck on the first step.