This is What it Takes

Today has been crazy.  I ran 5 miles.  Yay - running!  This is the first time in a week because I have been sick.  It was a hard run but I really needed it to calm the stress.  Then, a client asked that I move some river rock even though we held her project back due to rain.  After about 500 lbs of rock moved by myself, I felt totally cool about having a snack.  Today the eating disorder symptoms seem easy because of all of this.  Wait - this isn't fair!  I want it to be easy when I exert a normal amount of physical energy.  Well, if this is what it takes today I guess that is good enough for me.  One step at a time, right?  I just hope that this level of confidence will someday occur without the excessive physical labor.