Hard

This journey has been a lot harder than I thought.  I am trying not to get discouraged and to know that even when I fail, getting right back up and trying again is more than I have done in years.  There is still a part of me that doesn't want to succeed and I need to beat that piece out of myself.  It is going to take some time.  This is definitely not an overnight process.  I have to remind myself that I have relied on my eating disorder for almost twenty years and it will take some time to let go.