Sorry all. I have disappeared for a few days. After an incredibly busy weekend and early part of the week I am finally finding some free time. Trying to deal with stress and busy schedules is always difficult for me. So trying to do it without my eating disorder is proving to be even more difficult.
Sometimes being busy is helpful. A change in the ordinary routine can throw it off enough that I don't go through my automated thought process. Other times business makes recovery feels downright impossible. Like if I have to eat at a restaurant that I am just not comfortable with. And then if I get really overwhelmed, I just shut down and go straight into symptom mode.
This week proved to be a mix of both. There were days that I was just too busy to stop and think. And there were days that my schedule got thrown out of whack with late lunches that I couldn't cope with. And there was one total stress meltdown day. But overall I stayed the course and did better than the previous week.
I'm still learning how to juggle my new schedule and manage my symptoms. I know it's a process and I should not get down on myself. But sometimes I wonder if I will ever find balance!
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