Ups and Downs

I have really been struggling with eating today.  I just feel fat and bloated every time I eat for hours.  After feeling icky all morning I finally was feeling better around 1:30pm and then figured I better eat lunch.  No fun!  But I don't want to exchange one symptom set for another.  There is no purpose in going through the struggle to stop purging if I start restricting.  So I will eat my meals.  I don't have to like it though!